For those who I told I would be doing vocals for an upcoming freeform track:

Unfortunately, this isn't going to happen. The track was due to be sent in today, and had a lot of changes made at last minute. The title of the track was also changed, and with Jen in from Long Beach, there was no way I could redo the vocals on such short notice. So no go this time. Was kinda disappointed yesterday, but it's all good. We all know this is not the end.

On the upside though, I did realise a few things:

Let's face it. My voice doesn't belong in happy hardcore. My lyrics are dark, and my voice is even darker. After showing this producer my lyrics, he agreed too. I might like happy hardcore, but I am in no way that happy-go-lucky vocalist. My atmospheres are dark and twisted.

It was worth a shot. It didn't happen. We move on.

Tags: freeform, happy, hardcore, vocals
Current Music: Ed Rush & Trace - some random darkside mix from 97

May 8, 2008, 11:38PM
3 accused of using corpse head to smoke pot

By PEGGY O'HARE


The Kingwood teenager's story of decapitating a corpse and using the head to smoke marijuana was so outlandish that at first Houston Police Department senior police officer Jim Adkins did not believe it.



Yet, Kevin Wade Jones Jr., 17, appeared almost indifferent as he relayed the bizarre description of his and two friends' activities at an Humble area graveyard, Adkins said.



"I just doubted it because it's very morbid, and I couldn't see anybody doing something like this," Adkins said Thursday.



Not until police went to the home of another Kingwood 17-year-old, Matthew Richard Gonzalez, did the officer believe the tale.



"He regurgitated in his plate of food when I asked him about it," Adkins said. "So I knew there was some truth to the story.

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Now, Jones, Gonzalez and a juvenile whose name has not been released are each charged with abuse of a corpse, a misdemeanor. All three were arrested Wednesday night.



Police said a fourth suspect is wanted for questioning.



Houston police believe the teens disturbed the grave of an 11-year-old boy who died in 1921.



The child was buried at an unmarked cemetery believed to be reserved for black veterans and their families, Adkins said.



Under the law, a person can be charged with abuse of a corpse simply by vandalizing, damaging or treating a gravesite offensively — even if the human remains buried there are not touched, Adkins said.



The child's skull has not been found. If recovered later, however, such a discovery will not change the charges filed against the three suspects, Adkins said.



The teens first came to police's attention during a vehicle burglary investigation. While being questioned, Jones told of desecrating the gravesite a month or two ago. Adkins said he believes the tale was intended to distract police from the vehicle break-in.



Jones claimed he and his friends used shovels to dig up the body and removed the corpse's head with a garden tool, Adkins said. Jones also revealed he and the other two boys took the severed head to the juvenile's home, where they used the skull as a "bong" to smoke marijuana, the officer said.



Police made three trips to the heavily wooded, snake-infested graveyard near the Eastex Freeway feeder road and FM 1960 before finding the disturbed grave several days ago.



"The grave was uncovered, and the headstone had been thrown off the grave and broken," Adkins said.



Because the grave is flooded with murky water from recent heavy rains, police have been unable to determine if the child's casket is still in the ground.



All three teens gave written and verbal confessions admitting they tried to dig up a body over a two-day period, Adkins said.



But the boys told conflicting stories about whether they actually severed the head — so police aren't sure if that gruesome detail really happened.



Even so, HPD is working closely with Humble police to try and find any surviving relatives of the child whose grave was disturbed. According to court papers, the grave belonged to Willie Simms.



"The ultimate goal will be to put this body back to rest," Adkins said.



Little is known about the graveyard. The Humble Bicentennial Museum could not confirm that it was reserved for black veterans, but Adkins said he observed "many, many headstones" for black soldiers killed during World War I and World War II.



The three boys, all home-schooled, have also been charged in connection with the vehicle break-in. Jones and the juvenile are charged with credit card abuse, while Gonzalez pleaded guilty to a charge of misdemeanor theft between $50 and $500.



Chronicle reporter Brian Rogers contributed.



www. chron. com

Tags: decapitation, desecration, gravestone. graveyard, marijuana, misdemeanor, skull, teens
Current Mood: calm

This is really getting redundant. I hate hospital visits. I haven't been to one in fucking years. But I had to go back today for two appointments. Someone shoulda warned me that it would cost me $10 and not $5. I was down to my last few dollars in my bank account before I went broke, but lucky for me, I did some quick thinking and was able to stop my bank account from hitting zero. Yay. Go me.

So what happened? First I went into the wound clinic. They took a look at the wounds, cleaned out the "dead tissue" and showed me how to dress the wound myself... as well as gave me a shopping bag full of medical shit.

And I got to see just how bad my wounds were when they cleaned the shit out. There's literally a ONE INCH HOLE in my leg from where this "thing" (now recognised to be a black widow) bit me.

Then it was over to my regular appointment, where they would have to "lance" the bite on the right side of my stomach. It turns out that they put some of the puss through a test and that I had a staph infection from these bites. Normal, right? At least it wasn't a bad thing. Took some vikodin before they sliced me open. Wasn't as bad as I thought. And just to show ya, this is what it looked like BEFORE they sliced it open:



Haha. Gross.

So I head back for a third time next Thursday. Yay... O_O

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: TitanZERO - Strength in Numbers

Death Perpetuum - Destructively Disturbed

This mix is more like a “concept” than a “demo.” The underlying effort of this is to show that what goes on inside my mind does indeed mirror the music that I spin. Dark and menacing tunes that build on ad infinitum, and with the flip of a switch, the music gets harder and more violent. But with darkness comes light, for there cannot be balance unless both are present. Following the chaotic “Soundwall VIP,” I decided to use “Clip Kill” to mildly chill out the mix before slamming face-first into darkness again.

Another goal of this mix is to show who my primary influences are. I’ve changed a lot musically over the years, and I want this mix to express that. As seen by the overdose on labels like Renegade Hardware, Moving Shadow, Prototype and Metalheadz, as well as a severe influx of such artists as Dylan and Dom & Roland.

As I was putting the finishing touches on the track list at 3 am, I was also watching the Metalheadz documentary that so many of you are familiar with. “Obsession” seemed to fit perfectly, while I thought “Up All Night Remix” would bring an epic and welcoming end to this brutal piece of work.

Audio coming next week!

-DP

Tracklist:

Basic Unit - Silver Wolf (Tech Itch Remix) [R&S]
Dylan & Loxy - Stereotype [Cylon]
Future Cut - Horns 2000 (Dylan Remix) [Renegade Hardware]
BC - Planet Dust [Prototype]
>>Deep Blue - Helicopter '97 [Moving Shadow]
BC - The Nine [BC]
Ed Rush, Optical & Fierce - Cutslo (Locuste Mix) [Prototype]
Trace - Sonar (Optical & Fierce Remix) [Prototype]
Faith In Chaos - Possession (Kemal & Rob Data Remix) [Outbreak]
Dieselboy - Invid (E-Sassin VIP) [Palm Pictures]
Dom & Roland - Thunder Remix [Moving Shadow]
Dom & Roland - Paradrenasite (Combined by Hive) [Moving Shadow]
Technical Itch - Heavy Metal (B-Key Remix) [Tech Itch]
Kryptic Minds & Leon Switch - Primary Objective [Tech Freaks]
>>Dom & Roland - Cycle of Life [Dom & Roland Productions]
Future Prophecies - Warlords Rising [Subtitles]
Evol Intent - Horns & Halos [Barcode]
The Enemy - Dying Time [Killing Sheep]
>>South*Star & Miracle - Omega Amen [Intasound]
Raiden - 6 Foot Ditch (Kryptic Minds Remix) [Renegade Hardware]
Dylan & B-Key - Slave to Life [Tech Freaks]
Kryptic Minds & Leon Switch – Hide the Tears Remix [Metalheadz]
Dom & Roland - Soundwall VIP [Moving Shadow]
Dom & Roland – Clip Kill [Moving Shadow]
Boymerang – Still [Prototype]
Dylan & Facs – Ceptor [Biotic]
UFO! – Enemy Infiltration [Thermal]
DJ Ink & Dylan – Need You [Renegade Hardware]
Future Cut feat. Jenna G – Obsession [Metalheadz]
Muffler – Embrace [Disturbed]
John B – Up All Night Remix [Metalheadz]

Tags: death, destructively, disturbed, dj, dnb, drum & bass, mix, perpetuum
Current Mood: calm

Midnight ramblings... Aren't they great? But I can't help but to just write and write and write to possibly empty my head of the thoughts that plague me at this very moment. I really don't know if anyone pays attention to this blog, but I'll post anyways...

So I went to the hospital two days ago for three infected insect bites. I'm not quite sure what kind of insect did this, but a lot of people are suspecting a very well-hidden black widow. How it got in here, I'm not quite sure. Is it dead and/or gone? I fucking hope so.

So it all started about two weeks ago when I found a puffy bite on my right leg. I used benedryl and ice on it, and it seemed to heal down pretty fast. Two nights later, three more bites appear. **Note: I was asleep. I did not feel anything bite me.** Over the next few days, I tried EVERYTHING, from benedryl cream AND tablets to Anti Itch X to hydrocortisone. Nothing seemed to work, and I'd already spent close to $30 on medicines. Lame. I was losing massive amounts of sleep because of the pain/discomfort too.

So finally I decided that I need to go to the clinic and get these things checked out. The first time I went was Monday. I got denied because the clinic near my house doesn't accept walk-ins (and I also found out that they wouldn't be able to help me anyways). So Tuesday morning, I called the number they gave me to set up an appointment at Valley Medical. I got there around 1:20, and was VERY nervous. I kept thinking about that scene from SLC Punk where Bob gets admitted to the hospital. It was a lot less than I'd pictured though.

They tested me for diabetes too because they thought it might be staph infection. Lucky for me, normal blood sugar level. No diabetes. yay. They had to "lance" (cut open) the bite on my left leg because there was a pool of puss/blood that was making it swell. It was pretty painless though. The most painful was them scraping at the bite on my side. It looked pretty nasty, but had to be done. An hour later, I was out of there, but I had another three hours to wait for my prescriptions, one of which was vikodin (which is REALLY helping right now).

The only problem was the fact that they didn't give me any painkillers to help deal with the situation as it was. I was in pain and was walking around like a cripple. So I headed over to Wendy's cuz I hadn't eaten all day. I headed back about 5:30, and to my delight, the prescriptions cost me nothing. That works. I'm broke anyways.

Two days have passed, and I've been taking the meds/using heat. The wound on my stomach has finally burst open (which is a good thing). I wish it would have happened sooner because they're gonna have to lance this fucker too. It's gonna hurt. Bring on the anti-pain drugs. The bite on my side and leg have massively decreased in size and are starting to heal. Yay for SOMETHING going right. I'm headed back to the clinic in the afternoon. I have to go to the wound clinic at 1:15 and have an appointment at 3:30.

Tags: bite, clinic, hospital, poisonous, vikodin, wound
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Ceremonial Castings

It's got a camera on it tooooo!


^_^

Tags: camera, phone, samsung
Current Mood: ecstatic

Before I go mix for fuckknowshowlong, let me tell the Myspace world about my day...

FINALLY I AM DONE WITH HOME DEPOT! I GOT FIRED.

And it's pretty fucking obvious as to why I'm not upset about this. How many people have listened to me rant on and on about how much I hate my job for MONTHS? Yea. Point made. Should I have moved down to SoCal back in September prior to the "house" turning into a "crack house?" YES. Shoulda known that it would amount to this. I'm not sad. I'm fucking ECSTATIC.

Seems to me like seven months of hard work has fallen on deaf ears and blind eyes. The way this Home Depot works... they play favorites and they play them to the CORE. If you're not friends with management, you're fucked (and doomed to stay in a single position as long as you live). I've applied for so many positions and have gotten NONE of them. How long have I been asking about this Head Cashier interview? Meh. Whatever. I've already written a blog about this bullshit.

I'll get to the point.

So I was an hour from leaving today when I was called up to the training room. It was there that I had two managers plus a stack of papers staring me in the face - my termination papers. So they wanted to use my last three late days against me it seems... though it's not my fault.

1) Stopped by light rail security and pulled off the train because I "looked like someone they were hunting down." right. Because I have a hood pulled over my head, a beard and a dark look to my eyes, I look like someone you would want to fuck with. Word.

2) One Monday morning, I was waiting for the light rail at 5:20 am. This would have gotten me to work by 5:32 or so (I start work at 5:45 am). The train is NOWHERE IN SIGHT. IT DOESN'T COME. The next train was 5:56 which got me to work by 6:06. Again, NOT MY FUCKING FAULT.

3) Last week, Capitol Light Rail station went under construction. I showed up at my usual time to catch the 8:04 train (which would get me to work by 8:54. I start at 9). I find that there are GATES surrounding the station. This confused the living hell out of me (especially considering that who the fuck is alert to everything going on at 8 am? Not me.). I eventually figured out that I would have to take a bus to the next light rail station (Tamien). Due to HEAVY (and I'm talkin heavy like WTF) traffic, what would have been a 2 minute light rail ride turned into a 50 minute battle through traffic. I got to the next light rail station, only to be 55 minutes late to work.)

The last time that I was late or called in sick was OCTOBER. Sure I was late a lot back then because I was rather traumatised by the place I dub "The Crackhouse" (and I'm not talking about the place in Oakland). So that would be six months of not calling in sick or being tardy. You would think that they would at least allow SOME of this slide. Keep in mind that on these three days, I called to let them know I would be late WELL ahead of time and got there as fast as I could.

But I somehow knew something would happen over the last few weeks, and this was it. Even as I walked out and said my goodbyes, people couldn't understand why they would fire me. Even though I felt like I was treated unfairly, I worked my ass off. Always trying to get more hours. Always trying to help out. But I was never recognised for any of this. I proudly wore the 2 cashier and 2 customer service awards I had been given, but I know that I deserved more.

I mean, just yesterday, I helped a customer load 100 bricks into her car for the SECOND time. She was saying how I always go out of my way to help customers, how hard of a worker I am, even when the task-at-hand isn't my job and how I need a promotion and a raise. The Front End Supervisor was even standing RIGHT NEXT TO ME when she said it. Loading those bricks wasn't my job, but there were no lot or garden associates to be found.

At least I have some fucking good references.

Oh... and now that I have nothing holding me back, SOCAL HERE I FUCKING COME.

Current Mood: content

Now for the fun part! :D Sooooooooo after the long wait, I finally have a mic! I'm so happy that I can now record vocals for the tens of producers that have been asking me for soooo long! I picked up a Shure Beta 58A two days ago from Guitar Center, and though I've only used it for a few minutes (thus far), I've already realised the power packed into this piece of equipment. I'm going to be using it a lot more as today progresses. Gotta get some other things out of the way first though.

I finally feel like the cosmos is allowing me to embrace my musical dreams (for the first time in my life). I've now got a full DJ set up and a mic (for the first time since 2005, before all of that equipment was stolen and sold on Ebay). I'm glad I didn't have to spend extra money on a pre-amp. Yay DJ mixer. So now it's my time to create (and destroy).

My voice has been my primary focus for the last few weeks or so and, despite the fact that not going to Arizona put a major dent in my plans of vocal dominance, I'm not gonna let that affect me. I've got all of the studio tracks for the tunes that will be on our (Juggernaut's) demo. The demo will consist of five tracks (at the current moment). The tracklisting is as follows:

a) Never Feel
b) Mindless
c) Anatomy of Existence
d) Alternate Souls
e) ???

On top of that, I'm hellbent on improving my voice and vocal range/endurance. I recently ordered Brett Manning's "Singing Success" program. You can check it out HERE. For those non-believers, be sure to watch the sample video provided on the website. I've been singing a lot of high-pitched songs lately to increase my range and solidify my endurance, including Megadeth, Symphony X (I'm amazed at how easy it is to hit some of these high notes now) and Therion (a current favorite).

I'm also really excited about the fact that I can now do a deep death metal growl. I don't really know where it came from or how I acquired it, but it makes me SEVERELY happy. I've been toying a lot with the screams of Epica and Arch Enemy lately, and though this new talent winded me pretty quickly when I first realised that I could do it, it's pretty easy now. I seem to be able to hit these growls with no effort whatsoever. ... And just like the advice that Angela Gossow of Arch Enemy gave to me months back, I'm going to start paying more attention to my "Zen of Screaming" DVD that I purchased last year. I'm excited about this year! :D

As far as DJing goes, I recently went out to Amoeba Music to buy some new wax, and I ended up with a big smile on my face by the time I left the store. Some of the new plates I acquired are:

Dylan - Inferno EP (Renegade Hardware)
Ink - Kaos Theory EP (Renegade Hardware)
Aftermath - Essential Rewindz (Renegade Hardware)
Disorder - Global Disorder EP (Position Chrome)
Dylan & Loxy - Stereotype b/w B-Key - Timezone (Cylon)
Rymetyme - Control b/w Stimulant (Saigon)
E-Sassin - Nightstalker b/w Chimera - Neolights (Phunkateck)
John B - Up All Night Remix (Metalheadz)

If I'd known that I had more money in my bank account/brought the records I didn't want anymore to sell, I could have had:

Panacea - Find Strength/Decade of Destruction (Position Chrome)
Ed Rush & Optical - The Medicine/Punchbag (Virus)
Ed Rush & Optical - Gasmask/Bacteria (Virus)

Oh well. They might be there the next time I stop by. I always find good stuff no matter what! :D

I also just got booked for a show by New World Family and Blu Ice Entertainment on July 18th entitled "Otter*Pops." I'll also be working that show as a lighting/audio engineer. Chase Larson of Larson Lighting/Blu Ice Entertainment is going to me mentoring me and showing me the ropes over the next few months. I'll be going to school for audio engineering one I'm finished with this debt rehibilitation program in six months. It's gonna be so exciting to finally go back to school. And now that I think about it, it's amazing how a threat (of garnishing my wages) could put me back on track to getting my life in order and getting a degree.

More crews are asking me for a demo too, so I'll have to get that done asap. Damn the capitalist workhorse. Always too busy for music. GRRRR. But I'll make it through. I'm eventually going to have to find the time to watch these tutorials for Reason 4.0 and Cubase SX so that I can start producing. Fuck knows when that's gonna happen. :P

Current Mood: awake

This will be the first of two blogs written today. I want to write all about my musical adventures and realisations, but first, I must tackle an issue that has been bugging me for months up until yesterday - my job at Home Depot.

I've been working there for over six months, have applied for various positions and did everything in my power to advance within the company. It started to seem to me like all of my efforts were falling on blind eyes. But yesterday was the boiling point - I've been feeling like a robot for months now. It isn't hard to operate a cash register, and I'm just burnt out and tired of dealing with every customer in the store every day. I began realising that once I came back for my fifth hour (after lunch), I'm a lot edgier than when I first come in. Also, I applied for a head cashier position two weeks ago, and the Human Resources Manager keeps putting off my interview. So finally I decided to do something about it - it was either sort things out or quit. I'm not able to take anymore of this repetition day-in and day-out.

I was pretty angry when I was leaving work because this had all built up to the point that I was going to explode. I watch as many of my friends get transferred to other departments, and I'm just stuck on a stupid cash register. I've already applied for millworks, paint and lead generator, and none of those positions came to me. So I figured that this was going to happen again with the head cashier position I just applied for. So I confronted my Front End Supervisor. Things went better than I thought they would.

I explained to him how I feel stuck in the company and it seems to me like I'm never going to advance anywhere. I also told him that I was on the verge of quitting if these things didn't change somehow. I really didn't like how he's been treating me for the last few weeks either. For example, I went to purchase a kit kat bar on my break, and he asked me "are you on the clock?" I replied, "yes, but I'm on break." He said to me, "you're not allowed to buy anything on the clock." That's a bunch of bullshit, and it was this that set me off. One of my head cashiers (that I'm pretty chill with) was out in garden, and she asked me what was wrong. So I told her everything. She gets treated unfairly too, so she understood. I also have to point out that it seems like this store plays favorites to the CORE. It's ridiculous. So I felt like I was being singled out. Other cashiers were doing Head Cashier type duties, and I just kept thinking to myself, "why the fuck aren't I doing these things?"

After venting all of my frustration, I came to find out that the reason I'm always out in the garden center is because:
a) He thought I liked being out there (which I do, but just not for eight hours straight)
b) I'm one of HD's strongest cashiers (even when I go into i-don't-give-a-fuck mode, my metrics are still on-point. Weird)
c) I have knowledge of the garden area that no other cashier has (I enjoy working out there, and I acquire knowledge pretty easily. Ask me about a drum & bass or hardcore release and info, and I'll talk your head off ;))

But I'm one of those people who like to multi-task. I like coming to work having different tasks every day. I'm not a Home Depot drone, and by that I mean... there are people that work there that are told what to do, do it every day, don't ask questions, etc. It's like they are "programmed" to do their "job." That is NOT me and will NEVER be me.

So after talking for a while, he began to understand why I've become so edgy over the past few months and is going to change my daily routine. He's going to pair me up with the MOD (Manager On Duty) and ASM (Assistant Store Manager) as well as put me in charge of training the new cashiers. Even if I was put out in the lot to push carts/load for four hours, that would be okay by me. I like lifting heavy stuff, and it's a good workout.

I’m glad I have a day off today (finally… for the first time in seven days). Hopefully when I go back to work tomorrow, things will be different. *crosses fingers*

Edit: Nothing has changed really. I continuously get yelled at for stupid, trivial shit. Whatever dude. I’m so over this.

Tags: drone, head cashier, home depot, job
Current Mood: awake

DUDE! It was so O_O!!!! I was on the BART headed towards Concord to meet Annalisa, and the train was stopped at Fruitvale. I looked out the window to see a cop getting on. For those of you who know the shit I've been through, even though I've done nothing wrong, dem badges put me on the edge. More cops began swarming the train, and soon enough, there were K9 dogs barking like crazy.

Then I overhear something about a gun. I was listening to my music, so I thought I might have misheard something. Sure enough, I was right. A half dozen cops drag the guy off of the train and cuff him. A few remaining officers search for and locate the weapon.

We could have gotten sprayed with bullets tonight. :O I'm not really all that freaked out, but DAMN! Why does all the fucked up situations occur around me? LOL. Makes me laugh really.

Fuckin hell man!

Tags: bart, bullets, concord, cops, gun, music, police
Current Location: annalisa's house
Current Mood: shocked