Building on my last blog, I have been constantly reflecting on what was written and how many of the points that I made are so dead-on, and weren't just something that I thought at the time. I guess that's what I like most about myself. I realise something, and I immediately take action (well, as soon as I can. Sometimes there are factors out of my control that prevent me from taking immediate action).

The first issue that I have to tackle is actually made up of two parts - work and location. So I've been wanting to get down to Southern California for months, right? And no one has any space for me to crash. I came up with the solution - And despite the fact that I've had some pretty shitty roommates, I figure that checking craigslist.com wouldn't hurt. I mean, I won't get to check out the place or meet the person renting the room out, but maybe I can have a friend go over to the place and check it out. If worse comes to worse, I could always take the place blindly (without seeing it/meeting the person renting), and if they're dodgy and/or the place sucks, I could put in my 30 day notice on day one and find a new place. At least I would be in Southern California, close to everything I desire.

With that though, where would I work? I've already brought up the fact that I could easily get a job at IHOP or Denny's. It'll probably happen, and it looks like a transfer from Home Depot won't happen. But then again, I'm not getting my hopes up for a transfer. Let's look back at the last six months, shall we? I decided to come back as a cashier, and I THOUGHT I was going to get full-time hours. Well I did... for a while. Then the hours cuts came. It affected me for a while, but the more I was noticed by one of my head cashiers, the more hours I got. Following my return from Chicago on Feb. 17, I have maintained a 32 to 40 hour schedule every week. And while that's all fine and good, it seems to me that once a shift passes the four hour mark (and after I come back from lunch), I begin to get extremely edgy. Today I figured out why - cashiering for eight hours (aka doing the same fucking thing every day and seeing the same fucking customers) drives me crazy.

How difficult is it to ring someone up? Not very. A fucking monkey could do it. So if you really think about it, cashiering is essentially a robot's job. Well guess what? I AM NOT A ROBOT. I am not designed with a set of programs embedded into my memory. I enjoy multi-tasking. I enjoy doing different tasks every day. So why is it that I haven't moved anywhere within the company? I turned down a position with a moving company (that would have also encompassed a bit of IT work) because I thought that going back to Home Depot would be a good opportunity for me. Apparently NOT.

I've now applied for millworks (twice), paint (twice), phone center, head cashier (twice) and lead generator. Apparently I'm supposed to have an interview this week (aka tomorrow probably). Once I find out the results of this whole ordeal, I might have to have another talk with Human Resources. It's the fact that I work so hard, and I have so many more abilities that I can use towards the company. I'm always being told that I'm one of HD's best cashiers, and I always help out anywhere that it's needed and come in whenever asked, etc. I've also received two cashier awards and two customer service awards (in six months) as well as being cashier of the week two weeks ago. You'd think that this would all contribute to something, right? Fucking wrong.

So I've determined that I'm working myself into an endless oblivion. I'm completely torched on writing. I do love being around people but not in a retail environment... because those customers piss me off (especially the ones who lack know-how and/or the ability to speak ENGLISH (You live in FUCKING AMERICA! LEARN THE FUCKING LANGUAGE OR GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE COUNTRY)). So I think I'm gonna start looking at restaurants for employment. After all, I do love food, and maybe I can work my way up to chef (I mean, I did make a really mean pasta dish tonight with marinara and steak. Can't wait to eat it tomorrow!). My two loves - food and music!

And that brings us to part three... All about the music!

Tags: depot, home, reflection, relocation, socal
Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: symphony x - paradise lost

After 13 hours of sleep (which still didn't make me feel any better than yesterday) and lots of moving, I'm finally set up in my new bedroom. There are still clothes all over the place, but it's all good.

I'm glad to finally be in a place that has good vibes, and I don't have to worry about some shady bullshit going down or someone stealing something of mine. Over the last five months, I had to worry about sketchy individuals going into my bedroom, so I always kept my door locked, even when I was home. I'm glad to be away from all of that.

Now with my head all sorted out (though I still feel all blaaah), time to figure out my move back to LA. Home Depot no longer means shit to me, especially after the things I encountered yesterday. Even if I go back to LA with no job, I'm still down. Whatever.

My turntables are all set up, and I was playing with my new vinyl today. I guess I've got more $ than I thought I had, so I'm DEFINITELY buying a mic and pre-amp this weekend! Maybe another trip to Amoeba/Rasputin is in order too!

This is my fucking time. I'm gonna make it happen.

Tags: amoeba, depot, home, la, mic, rasputin, turntables
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: LTJ Bukem - Journey Inwards