Death Perpetuum - Destructively Disturbed

This mix is more like a “concept” than a “demo.” The underlying effort of this is to show that what goes on inside my mind does indeed mirror the music that I spin. Dark and menacing tunes that build on ad infinitum, and with the flip of a switch, the music gets harder and more violent. But with darkness comes light, for there cannot be balance unless both are present. Following the chaotic “Soundwall VIP,” I decided to use “Clip Kill” to mildly chill out the mix before slamming face-first into darkness again.

Another goal of this mix is to show who my primary influences are. I’ve changed a lot musically over the years, and I want this mix to express that. As seen by the overdose on labels like Renegade Hardware, Moving Shadow, Prototype and Metalheadz, as well as a severe influx of such artists as Dylan and Dom & Roland.

As I was putting the finishing touches on the track list at 3 am, I was also watching the Metalheadz documentary that so many of you are familiar with. “Obsession” seemed to fit perfectly, while I thought “Up All Night Remix” would bring an epic and welcoming end to this brutal piece of work.

Audio coming next week!

-DP

Tracklist:

Basic Unit - Silver Wolf (Tech Itch Remix) [R&S]
Dylan & Loxy - Stereotype [Cylon]
Future Cut - Horns 2000 (Dylan Remix) [Renegade Hardware]
BC - Planet Dust [Prototype]
>>Deep Blue - Helicopter '97 [Moving Shadow]
BC - The Nine [BC]
Ed Rush, Optical & Fierce - Cutslo (Locuste Mix) [Prototype]
Trace - Sonar (Optical & Fierce Remix) [Prototype]
Faith In Chaos - Possession (Kemal & Rob Data Remix) [Outbreak]
Dieselboy - Invid (E-Sassin VIP) [Palm Pictures]
Dom & Roland - Thunder Remix [Moving Shadow]
Dom & Roland - Paradrenasite (Combined by Hive) [Moving Shadow]
Technical Itch - Heavy Metal (B-Key Remix) [Tech Itch]
Kryptic Minds & Leon Switch - Primary Objective [Tech Freaks]
>>Dom & Roland - Cycle of Life [Dom & Roland Productions]
Future Prophecies - Warlords Rising [Subtitles]
Evol Intent - Horns & Halos [Barcode]
The Enemy - Dying Time [Killing Sheep]
>>South*Star & Miracle - Omega Amen [Intasound]
Raiden - 6 Foot Ditch (Kryptic Minds Remix) [Renegade Hardware]
Dylan & B-Key - Slave to Life [Tech Freaks]
Kryptic Minds & Leon Switch – Hide the Tears Remix [Metalheadz]
Dom & Roland - Soundwall VIP [Moving Shadow]
Dom & Roland – Clip Kill [Moving Shadow]
Boymerang – Still [Prototype]
Dylan & Facs – Ceptor [Biotic]
UFO! – Enemy Infiltration [Thermal]
DJ Ink & Dylan – Need You [Renegade Hardware]
Future Cut feat. Jenna G – Obsession [Metalheadz]
Muffler – Embrace [Disturbed]
John B – Up All Night Remix [Metalheadz]

Tags: death, destructively, disturbed, dj, dnb, drum & bass, mix, perpetuum
Current Mood: calm

Tags: dance, dj, otter, pops, rave
Current Mood: artistic

When Doctor Doom asked me to come play at the Combat Zone, I was overjoyed at the fact that I would be playing alongside Ewun, R.A.W. and MC Dino, not to mention that this would be my first 2x4 set (2 DJs, 2 mixers, 4 turntables). So I alerted a friend of this gig, and he said he would be down to go. So I started to hunt for more people to caravan it down there.

A few weeks ago, he informed me that he would be staying in town for a local event. So back on the hunt I went. At the same time, I was talking to Mike Battle about finishing up some tracks previously recorded by one of his former outfits, Alternate Existence. So once my vocals were put on these tracks, they would be pressed to CD. Then distribution would begin. I also had plans to record two rock tracks for drum & bass labels Vibez Recordings and/or 13 Music.

So back on the hunt I went. Another friend informed me that he couldn't drive me either. But finally I found someone that was all about going down there. Her car was in the shop, but I figured that we would rent a car and jet it down there. Yesterday, she informed me that this is in no way possible. I guess she was supposed to have more money, but that never happened. So she can't even get anywhere now.

So as my last desperation efforts, I checked Greyhound and Amtrak. Greyhound would cost too much, and Amtrak didn't have the appropriate transfers. It would take me almost an entire day by train to get to Arizona. Not gonna work.

So now I'm out of options, and what's even worse is the fact that Mike had stepped out of a wedding just to get these tracks done. I feel so bad that all of this has happened. I feel like a total letdown. I feel like I've disappointed more people. I can't even face Mike right now. I just feel like curling up into a ball and falling into oblivion. I'm in disbelief that I can't even make it there.

I need to get the fuck out of NorCal. This is the fucking END of it. This place does nothing but hold me back and stop me from getting shit done. I'M FUCKING DONE

Tags: 13, arizona, dj, metal, vibez
Current Music: Symphony X - Candlelight Fantasia

After a long day of reflections and realisations, there is one issue that I have yet to tackle... my status in the dance music scene. It has been almost seven years since I first started assisting in this music I love so much. I've done everything from events to journalism to DJing, but as of now, it seems as if there is something missing.

I've moved to California four times, all for the purpose of making something of myself as an artist. Maybe my dreams acted a bit too much as a veil. I've fallen numerous times while living out here. And though I've gotten up every time trying harder than the previous. It seems that the more I try, the more I head straight for a brick wall.

That brick wall is represented by the element we know as time. Over the years, people have put a lot of pressure on me to make mixes. I'm sorry that I've failed you. I'm sorry that I couldn't satisfy your musical hunger. I'm sorry if I've been a slacker. Sure, I could have had many opportunities (like playing many places across the States and abroad), but looking back on those times are now deemed worthless. I have many loves in electronic dance, including drum & bass, gabber, happy hardcore and old skool, but along with being a DJ comes the question of "what genre(s) should I mix?" I've mixed all four of the above-mentioned genres, but now I'm in a bind. After the incident at the club last Tuesday, the genre question becomes even more prominent. I feel confused. I need to take a step back and re-evaluate what touches my soul.

Drama within a scene can tear one apart, and after serious thought, I realised that I miss what the music used to feel like when I first started going to parties/clubs. I feel that I know too much about the "scene" and all of its politics, and that makes it hard to enjoy the true elements of the rave: people and music. These elements create the unity we should all feel on the dancefloor, but it is these little things that we know about certain "shady crews" that rips everything to shreds. These are the things that keep people from coming back for the next event. New party kids are born every day, but at the same time, party kids leave the scene every day as well.

So what am I saying then? Am I leaving the scene? No. From this point on though, I will no longer be taking bookings, helping out with events (there are exceptions to this though), booking talent or promoting for an event. I simply want nothing to do with the production aspect of putting an event together. I wanna be the kid who comes to the rave to dance and see his friends. Then it's off to afterhours with a smile on his face.

The only thing left is journalism. That is something I won't stop. I love writing and finding out about other artists I have no previous knowledge of. I'm also going to continue collecting records. If there's one thing I love as much as writing, it's digging for those rare gems and amazing tracks. Of course I'm not done with this scene forever. I just need a break. I need to go back to my roots. I need to RAVE! So from this point on, that's where I stand.

I'm a raver for life.

Rave

Til

I

Die

Tags: dj, rave, reflections