This will be the first of two blogs written today. I want to write all about my musical adventures and realisations, but first, I must tackle an issue that has been bugging me for months up until yesterday - my job at Home Depot.

I've been working there for over six months, have applied for various positions and did everything in my power to advance within the company. It started to seem to me like all of my efforts were falling on blind eyes. But yesterday was the boiling point - I've been feeling like a robot for months now. It isn't hard to operate a cash register, and I'm just burnt out and tired of dealing with every customer in the store every day. I began realising that once I came back for my fifth hour (after lunch), I'm a lot edgier than when I first come in. Also, I applied for a head cashier position two weeks ago, and the Human Resources Manager keeps putting off my interview. So finally I decided to do something about it - it was either sort things out or quit. I'm not able to take anymore of this repetition day-in and day-out.

I was pretty angry when I was leaving work because this had all built up to the point that I was going to explode. I watch as many of my friends get transferred to other departments, and I'm just stuck on a stupid cash register. I've already applied for millworks, paint and lead generator, and none of those positions came to me. So I figured that this was going to happen again with the head cashier position I just applied for. So I confronted my Front End Supervisor. Things went better than I thought they would.

I explained to him how I feel stuck in the company and it seems to me like I'm never going to advance anywhere. I also told him that I was on the verge of quitting if these things didn't change somehow. I really didn't like how he's been treating me for the last few weeks either. For example, I went to purchase a kit kat bar on my break, and he asked me "are you on the clock?" I replied, "yes, but I'm on break." He said to me, "you're not allowed to buy anything on the clock." That's a bunch of bullshit, and it was this that set me off. One of my head cashiers (that I'm pretty chill with) was out in garden, and she asked me what was wrong. So I told her everything. She gets treated unfairly too, so she understood. I also have to point out that it seems like this store plays favorites to the CORE. It's ridiculous. So I felt like I was being singled out. Other cashiers were doing Head Cashier type duties, and I just kept thinking to myself, "why the fuck aren't I doing these things?"

After venting all of my frustration, I came to find out that the reason I'm always out in the garden center is because:
a) He thought I liked being out there (which I do, but just not for eight hours straight)
b) I'm one of HD's strongest cashiers (even when I go into i-don't-give-a-fuck mode, my metrics are still on-point. Weird)
c) I have knowledge of the garden area that no other cashier has (I enjoy working out there, and I acquire knowledge pretty easily. Ask me about a drum & bass or hardcore release and info, and I'll talk your head off ;))

But I'm one of those people who like to multi-task. I like coming to work having different tasks every day. I'm not a Home Depot drone, and by that I mean... there are people that work there that are told what to do, do it every day, don't ask questions, etc. It's like they are "programmed" to do their "job." That is NOT me and will NEVER be me.

So after talking for a while, he began to understand why I've become so edgy over the past few months and is going to change my daily routine. He's going to pair me up with the MOD (Manager On Duty) and ASM (Assistant Store Manager) as well as put me in charge of training the new cashiers. Even if I was put out in the lot to push carts/load for four hours, that would be okay by me. I like lifting heavy stuff, and it's a good workout.

I’m glad I have a day off today (finally… for the first time in seven days). Hopefully when I go back to work tomorrow, things will be different. *crosses fingers*

Edit: Nothing has changed really. I continuously get yelled at for stupid, trivial shit. Whatever dude. I’m so over this.

Tags: drone, head cashier, home depot, job
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